Philosophizing Shaped My Journey Into a Truly Moral Life

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Abstract

I describe a profound transformation caused by delving deeply into philosophy. My once vibrant world full of emotions has become muted and analytical. I see emotions as fleeting and insignificant, relying on logic as a guide. This detachment allows me to observe the world objectively and act for the greater good.

However, this newfound logic comes at a cost. I feel depersonalized and isolated. Simple experiences lose their meaning when constantly questioned and analyzed. I acknowledge the potential for great evil within me, a darkness I choose to suppress.

I argue that philosophy, through logic, offers a path to morality and understanding. It exposes the limitations of societal constructs and personal biases. This intellectual awakening, while potentially isolating, is necessary for those who seek a deeper understanding of the world.

It wouldn't be an exaggeration to say philosophy has reshaped my life, or at least, muted the person I once was. Before delving into its depths, this world to me, was long ago, vibrant with unfiltered color and emotion.

Now, through the enhanced virtue that is logic, and the things it can do to humanity, I slowly declined into a depersonalized man who is only attached to his endless chains of thoughts. I externally observe everything from the facade of your delusions of me... Of the delusion that I am fully human like you, who is attached to his emotions and to anything he is involved in.

No. The only true company that remains genuine are my contemplations. Everything I feel, I feel as if it is an external force of nature... even if it is deep, inside, of me. I am not perfectly logical, no. But this lack of attachment to anything, made me rely on logic as the lifeline of my sanity.... This makes me both a dangerous and helpful being.

And it is through the virtue of intellect, that allows me to choose the virtue of good, and thus resume in my lifelong journey, to contribute to humanity as much as I can.

For the moral thing to do is to make the world a better place. And I don't need to be attached to anything but the logical reasoning that good is a lifeline of benefit, for me to bring good to this world indefinitely. If I am to suffer, I will suffer, for I am depersonalized from my own suffering as well.

I am not mentally untouchable, no. My mentality is touchable. But I am no longer part of my own mentality. It is separate from me, because I developed the cognitive ability to watch it from afar. I developed the ability to watch anything from afar, and keep that distance, with enough effort, until doing so becomes intuitive.

As I am unhindered by my own mentality, relying mostly on the power of logic to understand this world, I have unlocked a great power within me. A power that I utilize and will utilize to make the world a better place. By the same token, the difference between me and you is simple: The vast majority of you, feel your emotions. Whether or not you internalize or externalize your emotions, you feel them. Therefore, you are affected by them greatly.

And I know that well. This makes me a human being who is capable for much evil and corruption in this world. A human being who can torment others without remorse. And unlike myself, you cannot toy with my emotions, for I do not feel my emotions any longer. I only observe them. I observe them like I observe philosophical inquiry. Philosophy made me depersonalize myself from myself, and myself from this world.

After delving to much of the darkness and evil of this world, I became desensitized from it. After delving into the darkness of myself, I desensitized myself from myself. Understand that you are not your emotions, the same as you are not your pinky. The pinky can be cut from you. You can be cut from your emotions. The difference between me and you, is that you are attached to your emotions as if it was your pinky.

My emotions remain but ghostly guests in my internal world. They are fleeting, insignificant. But they are only fleeting and insignificant to me. Never, to, you. That is unless you become depersonalized, like I did with myself, using my neuroplastic technique, that transformed me into the being I am today.

Never assume that you know me well, whether you're family or a devout follower. Within me I hold a world I refuse to reveal. I've been to that world in my meditations. I saw things. I am different. My subconscious is a sea of mystery whom I use to fuel my article empire. Within me lies a vast history embedded within my genetics. For human beings are far more capable than what they may think they are.

And I refuse remaining a hopeless victim. Along this same line, I refuse becoming what I saw I can be, deep within my subconscious. I refuse unleashing this horror within me to the world beyond me. No. That is immoral. I will not forgive myself, if I will be the person I am capable of becoming.

And my enhanced intellect remains that barrier. The barrier that can prevent much suffering... that can prevent even deaths. It is through the intellect that I realize the everlasting importance of good.

Once a person becomes a philosopher, everything and everyone becomes pigs for the slaughtering, relentless force of rumination. Experiences once accepted at face value are now invaded by a questioning, inspecting it from every degree possible to its current capabilities. Travel, relationships, even the simple act of enjoying a donut—all are subjected to the remorseless, unforgiving questioning of the profound philosophical mind.

This examination can strip away innocence, replacing it with a constant barrage of inquiries that may not always offer comforting answers.

And as mentioned, once you delve deep into discomfort, you become used to it. You can even speak of fuel for nightmares, as if it were a regular occasion. The suffering of millions, the deaths of the innocent, the abuse of those who have no reason to deserve it -- it all becomes a mere, external, observation.

Many experiences, like traveling abroad, getting married, or achieving social success, lose their glow under the philosopher's anti-human gaze. For the human being is not logical by nature. No. Logic cares not of your humanity, if your humanity has no context in a bigger matter, or if it is not the main topic of discourse. Thus, even the value of being humane, can become irrelevant as a dust in a basement's corner.

And will most humans deprave you of your humanity? Most likely not. Will people as seriously logic as me? I can, as long as the conditions above apply. Such is the brutality of logic. And sound logic is the root of all profound philosophy.

All depending on the rule of context, can appear smaller, less significant compared to the vast canvas of existence, and the degrees it is composed of. Philosophy reveals the practical hollowness of many interests, exposing them as mere constructs of social expectations, or but personal whims.

The larger the context that is available to one's mental vision, the less significance anything individual can hold. No matter how much you value it. No matter how much you hold it to your heart.

Logic sets itself away from the heart. For the heart fails to understand what logic can do easily and more effectively. All, beyond the insanity that lies in love. And there is no greater humanity, than the love towards another human being. No matter what that being will do to you, your heart will confine you to him or her, as long as it has attached you to them in a bond.

But I have no attachment even to my own emotions. You can hurt my emotions, but you cannot make them hurt me, when I'm not attached even to the emotional significance of my mental pain. I broke myself from within, and the only way left for me is the way forward. A way towards good.

I suffered so much, I feel no desire for others to suffer like I did. It isn't right. It will never be right, because no one deserves to suffer like I did. The fact that I didn't deserve it myself, matters not in this context. And see now, how I minimized my own personal experience, in the name of the greater context.

Imagine eating a donut. As you chew, you recognize it not as a gateway to blissful pleasure, but as but a sugar-coated treat, nothing else. Your new girlfriend? A representative of experiences that can be analyzed for days.

Will she be able to tear down your heavily fortified fortress of reason? Why oppose the very virtue that helps you understand the world? And the world spins on, unaltered by whether or not you slept with her. Unaltered by your marriage. Unaltered by your divorce. Unaltered by the pains of heartbreak, that succeeded years of happiness.

The world cares not about you as an individual unless you matter in its broader context. Your suffering won't even matter to your long line of successors, if even them can deem you... too forgettable... to be worthy... of remembering as a person of value.

And logic, is, all, about, value. The pursuit of logic is the pursuit of value that is independent of anything you may hold dear.... including yourself. You will only be of value, when you bind yourself with a larger context, and rise within its ranks.

Otherwise, you will be discarded in the graveyard of the past.

Many of us live life on the short-term, day-to-day. How infantile of us. As if the short-term matters more, than the long-term. It is only through education that we become logical beings. And education fails from the start, when it fails teaching logic -- the science of value.

And there is no morality without value. You cannot know morality if you fail to understand value.

As education fails to teach its students the science of value, it depraves them from the privilege of understanding morality beyond the whims of momentary, subjective perception.

Only through logical awareness, attained through philosophical contemplation, a sense of liberation from societal constraints can be applied practically, for logic is beyond the small context of any society. Witness, as you get exposed to the the illusory nature of our cultural constructs, the "domes" we inhabit since day one, while we are normalized to deem it a reality.

It is this awakening that some may call intellectual transcendence, while others may perceive it as a form of existential emptiness, or a cringeworthy eccentricity, which will make them stay clear of your path towards inquisitive isolation.

I call it a necessary unmasking, a rejection of the unquestioned acceptance that defines many lives. It is necessary, however, only for those who care enough to understand the connection between logic and morality.

And the more we engage in logical inquiry, the clearer the path to philosophical understanding becomes—whether we dwell in academia or in a forgotten street corner.

Watch as you unfold to a different being. A greater being, at least by the virtue of ethics. But never expect others to be the same level as yourself, the deeper you delve into your contemplations.

Never expect to return as if you never did it.