(Trying to Avoid) Narcissism (Poem)

Back in the late 10's,

I won a very important reward.

Quora's Top Writer award,

I'm a top writer,

So don't think I'm senile, or a retard.

I don't know if I'll manage that to duplicate,

But as long as I live, I guess I can just relate!

I will try my best to make the world understand,

That my writings, are relevant,

And irrelevancy, itself, is irrelevant.

Back in the early 10's,

I met a very important, person.

He made me a philosopher,

I'm a philosopher,

So don't think it's a game, of poker.

I don't know if I'll manage to follow his example,

But at least I can try to grow my own "temple"!

I will try my best to make the world understand,

That my writings, are relevant,

And irrelevancy, itself, is irrelevant.

Back, in the middle 10's,

I won the third place on a municipal writing, show.

This isn't just for show!

I'm a good writer,

So don't act like you, don't know.

Hundreds sent their applications, but they got rejected.

Do you see now, that I'm, for you, a good asset?

So I will try my best to make the world understand,

That my writings, are relevant,

And irrelevancy, itself, is irrelevant.

But back in 2018,

I began growing a very chronic, fatigue.

I'm not lazy,

I'm not lazy at all,

I'm just so exhausted, it's crazy.

Every morning I might wake up so tired.

But at least I can say, that, I have still tried!

And as long as I'll try, I'll attempt to make you understand,

That my work, is not that worthless;

That I too shouldn't be left, in the darkness.

When the time will come,

I know I might fail my, mission.

So much funding, on advertisements,

Will the world still forget me, after my season?

It is every flower's turn to begin to bloom,

But that also start, their path, leading to their doom!

At least if I try I might die gladfully,

Because even if I won't, succeed,

Some might remember, my deed.

I'm no narcissist,

Contrary to what some of you, might think.

I just want to contribute,

In the best way I can,

Do you see what it requires, man?

It requires recognition, and a reputation that's quite nice,

It's only then when my legacy will, fully rise.

I hope now that you can truly see this truth:

That this is all means, to an end,

and not some means, with no end.