Knowledge Repressed -- My Subconscious Path To Philosophy and Back

Knowledge Repressed -- My Subconscious Path To Philosophy and Back

Seventeen, years, before I became my world's superspy,

My path of depression started with philosophy before my eye:

A lava planet, so beautiful appeared before my screen;

A thought experiment was an original sin.

It's where I turned alone, without kin.

And as I've tried to explain what I truly have seen.

I witnessed people begging me to stop, and silent, I have been.

Eleven, is where this world became empty,

It is really, empty than what we think it is.

Much of reality is nothing more than our own meaning.

With no one to tell, and with no one to understand.

I descended into a realm only intellectuals can comprehend.

Trying, to process my first experiment,

While trying to mentally survive, work for betterment,

I saw the void, as I denied and denied.

Criticized as an egocentric, and pessimist,

What I really wanted was to spare others, the results, I hid in mist...

The planet, as I visited it countless times,

Lost its charm, and it was when I realized,

What we think our world is, is less than summarized.

The attributions we grant rarely have to do with reality.

Naturally, I would develop a great deal of anxiety.

A future, was promised by society,

But was robbed away by my sobriety.

Things are less than what they are, what they are.

And as I realized this void, I discovered nihilism.

Was conditioned to deny it, so in solitude, I sought philosophy.

My unconscious, have devised an article barony,

To teach people whom might hopefully see,

The truth beyond the matrix, of our own making.

The flying traffic, will fly on that world either way,

And its garrison will guard it without having any say.

The idea exists independently, platonically,

And to remain sane, I had to lean,

On something tangible, but not away from the shark's fin.

I had to deny, but deep inside I sought to confess,

The horror of realizing how empty this world has truly been.

Asceticism, allowed my mind to not much deteriorate,

And this person thinks they came through fate.

But I had to restore my life back,

Before planet Snivelak.