My Uphill Battle Against This Wisdom-Rigged World

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(Philosocom's Subcategory on Suikoden Content)

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Ever since I opened up Philosocom, I went against this world. This world needs rectification. This world exploits and deceives the masses, and many people live miserable lives. It saddens me to see it.

I want to rectify this world. People don't seek this as a product. They seek shallow things instead, as this world gets annihilated by climate change, product of consumerism.

I seek to rectify the world because it is the right thing to do. However, the right thing rarely gets noticed when it's done.

I helped many people sustain themselves during war, when I lived as a refugee. I even saved lives, and got engaged. Ever since I saw the woman I am engaged to, I sought to cleanse myself of my darkness, and cleansing myself of it I did, by helping many people and even saving lives from despair.

However, did my good deeds get noticed? No, they didn't. Yet, I did them anyways. I did them because they were the right thing to do.

As a child I grew up on an obscure game named Suikoden IV, about a hero who got wrongly framed for murder, and yet he did the right thing every single time. That game shaped my moral philosophy, and that hero, Razro, is a character that is basically my role model.

He saved people, forgave those who sought to fight him, and thus redeemed himself from the bad things in which he got inflicted with, with great bravery and heroism.

By his own power, Razro liberated nations from oppression by just being himself.

By my own power, I saved lives, helped many through Philosocom, and rectified myself from my darkness, cursed upon me by an unjust world.

This world is rigged against wisdom. No one's buying wisdom en masse. People are becoming brain-rotten. The truth is not something that is catered to, but something that is explored and said even when uncomfortable. Philosophy, at its rawest form, has nothing to do with catering, and to cater, you have to give up on yourself.

Wisdom is rarely sought because this is a twisted world where the corrupt thrive and good people suffer. I have long decided that beyond my contributions to this world, I want nothing to do with it.

I know I am rare, and I wish it wasn't the case. If more people wanted this world to be rectified, and actively did things to rectify the world, then it would've been a better place to live in.

I know I am but one man, but as one man I did much to so many people to help them. I don't seek recognition for doing the right thing, and I don't need validation for doing the right thing. I saved 6 people from despair and one of them told me that no one saved them before hanging up on me forever, feeling betrayed because they experienced that I forsake them. I still do not regret saving them, because doing the right thing is the right thing to do, and helping people is always good.

However, this world goes against saving people. It goes, instead, for worrying about yourself above all. During the course of a war, I had a little Suikoden IV adventure of my own, where I rose to power and helped so many people. However, I remain in obscurity because I don't seek fame for my actions. And, I will not tell whom I saved because the right thing to do is to maintain discretion.

In this corrupt world, you can do all the right things, and still remain alone and even a failure. You're not supposed to be just, you're supposed to be wise in terms of worrying about yourself above anyone else. I'm sorry, but such a prioritization goes against my morals.

I am probably one of the most moral people in this world, but I don't really care. All the good things I did, were because of my sense of justice. I have no ounce of regret of helping all these people who contributed to the site, while saving some of them from existential despair.

I am fighting an uphill battle in a world rigged against wisdom. I don't know if I'll ever win it. Yet, you miss all the shots you don't take. To this day I fight this world by being a moral and honest man who just wants to contribute. Think about it... All I want to do is to rectify the world, and to contribute. That is so rare that it might be hard to believe. Yet, I am a rare person, and of that I am painfully aware.

I just poured and poured money on this huge project called Philosocom, helping people throughout the world. Yet, this world is rigged against me. However, at least I get to do what I like, and I like to rectify the world. This is who I am. I want to make the world a better place, and I know how hard it is, when it is so easy to misplace your trust in people.

I am a solitary creature. All I want is to rectify the world and be left alone. I want no rewards, no trophies for my good deeds. I just want to do good and live in peace.

I know how hard it is to be good in this world. I chose a most hard route. I live ascetically while I invested much into a site that rarely gets me a financial return, yet I do it because it is my passion. I passionately write, I passionately help people. I know I can be seen negatively because of scammers, because like in Suikoden IV, it is so easy to frame good people for bad things.

Yet, despite everything the world throws at you, if you continue to be good, you must resume resisting the urge to break bad. You must resume being strong, and redeem yourself from your darkness. There is no reward for it, no crowd to come to cheer you up.

This world is unfair, and I am fighting an uphill battle to rectify this world through my writings. I am not whining; I am not seeking pity for being unrecognized.

All I want to do is the right thing. I am not a martyr, I am not a saint, nor I am a savior. At this point of my lifelong journey as a philosopher, I am just a good person who wants to rectify the world.

And even if I fail, at least I tried. I tried hard. Worked hard for little return. I'll admit, I wanted to give up many times. Yet, in my quest to always be strong, I decided to resume working on a site that gets me very little in return.

I reconcile myself by the fact that I am doing something I like, something many people don't get to do.

This world is unfair, unjust, corrupt and immoral. By being brutally honest as a good person, I go against it. Even if people don't believe me, even if they think it is too good to be true, I still keep at it. I want after me to leave a glorious legacy of an empire that did good to the world.

And even if that good will remain unspoken of, and below the radar, just like the lives I saved, I'll continue doing it, because that is the only thing that makes me feel alive inside. Like Eggman, who fights an uphill battle in a world rigged against tyranny, I fight the same type of battle in a world rigged against wisdom, justice, and all that is good.

Why do I do this? Why won't I focus on my own self-interest like everyone else does? In reality, I do. By helping people, I help myself feel better. By making the world a better place, I feel better with myself.

I am dead inside. I am in love with ethics. Ethics are the only thing that helps me feel alive. Doing good as a way of life resurrects me from the dead and helps me feel good about myself.

I want to rectify the world! This is who I am! I am crying from joy as I am writing this because world rectification is the only thing that mesmerizes me. Contributing to people helps me feel alive.

Good can be exploited so easily in this world, so I prefer to play it smart and be left alone. This is why I live like an ascetic hermit and rarely speak to anyone beyond a small circle of people. I wish it was different, but I must retain my good nature in solitude. I cannot do it as a social butterfly. I suffer from loneliness but I don't care. I will be strong! I will be good! By my own power, I will do the best I can to rectify the world, and continue fighting an uphill battle in a world rigged against wisdom because I am like Sysyphus, but happy.

And to continue to fight this world, you must keep imagining Sisyphus being happy.