On The Need to Be Always Strong

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In my quest for redemption from darkness, I have saved people from themselves. However, I am well aware of the fact that no one is going to save me. I helped a lot of people, but no one is necessarily going to help me believe in myself.

It is the life I have chosen for myself. I have purposefully made life harder on myself because I want to be strong. I seek not the comfort of an easy life, but the strength that stems a hard life where no one helps me as much as I help myself.

Being a child and playing "Beat Down: Fists of Vengeance", I was mesmerized by the enigmatic Zanetti, whose philosophy which I covered here on the site. In one of the scenes, the antagonist Zanetti said:

If you cannot beat me by your own power, you are not ready to take over from me.

That is what the ruthless Zanetti told Aaron, his own son, before casting him away, and renouncing him as his son.

I never want to see you again! You are no longer my son!

Later on, when I mastered English by myself and researched the game, I was mesmerized by the ruthless Zanetti philosophy, that said that you need to handle things by your own power. It inspired me to be the man I am today.

I don't need psychologists to heal me. I want to heal myself. I want to always be strong because I want to be worthy a man enough to my woman. It is through my strength where I am able to overcome every adversity, every war, every distress, until the very last the Pax Ethica mentality is reached by my mind -- a state of total bliss, where inner peace and harmony reigns.

This world is made out of weaklings that mainly help themselves, and don't have the strength within themselves to help others. In my overwhelming inner strength, I am left alone, prevailing the hardships of life by my own power, just like in the game of Beat Down: Fists of Vengeance, where your goal is to overwhelm Zanetti for casting you away from his mafia organization.

In this solitary life, I cannot expect people to help me as much as I help myself. I seek not happiness but the satisfaction of being strong. It is through strength that I can overcome my problems and press forward in my quest to create a magnificent philosophical blog, for all the world to enjoy.

Many contributed to this site, but this is mainly my own project. I alone stand responsible for this project. It is through my own power that I managed to craft such a unique philosophical blog, and it is through my own power that I managed to overcome my health impediments over the years. Very few helped me. My quest of recovery is done from my own prowess.

Strength is a constant quest. Strength, like mastery, is something that is needed to be maintained regularly. Or else, it wanes away, leaving one to weakness.

And the last thing I want to be is weak. I am brave, I am strong, I saved people, and it is my role to save myself from despair as much as I saved others from despair.

I cannot expect anyone to help me as good as I helped others. I can't expect anyone to be my saviour, but myself. I am my own saviour, a relentless survivor of trauma.

It is through passion that I work, and craft a unique philosophical blog and a unique self. One that isn't reliable on others in moments of where I feel down and/or broken. If I cannot overcome things by my own power, then I am unworthy to be the ruler of Philosocom. That's how I feel, and see this world.

In this age of AI, where readership wanes in the name of artificially generated content, I have questioned if I should give up on doing this.

I realized, however, that I shouldn't give up. Working on this site gives me discipline, gives me the strength to press forward in life, and helps sharp the power of my mind. Working on this site helps me develop as a man and be strong enough against the currents of a rapidly changing world, whose technology is built for the oppression and the manipulation of the masses.

Against the contemporary technological trends, my philosophical empire stands firm, a special gem in a world of shallowness.

I, its creator, must still stand strong if I want to overcome problems by my own power, inspire people, and rectify the world as a result.

It is necessarily a solitary journey, which no one will undergo for myself. It is a journey I must keep on going myself. Even when I told that I am not alone, I know, deep inside, that I am. I alone seek strength. I alone seek to overcome problems by my own power. Even when I am not alone, I am alone in my burning desire for strength.

No one is going to save me; no one is going to heal me; no one is going to be strong for me. I must be strong by myself, if I want to stay doing what I am doing in life; to be a philosopher in a world which sees philosophy as esoteric; to be a website owner in a world where websites grow irrelevant...

Being a website owner is not done for the money. It is done out of passion for what one is most aligned with, for the niches that help one feel alive. I live to work on this site, for that is what ignites my passion and helps me feel alive. For some, it is a hobby. For me, it is a legacy to be left throughout the ages.

I build myself around the site and around my woman. I must stay strong. I must persevere. Failure is not an option.

I want her... I want her to still keep proud of me, as well as my parents.

I refuse to fail. I refuse to give up. The only thing I chose to give up on, is weakness itself.

And even when there will be no one left to stay proud of me, I still want to stay strong. That is my goal, that is my ongoing task at hand.

I just can't bear the thought of being weak.

I will keep exercising, I will keep working on the site, I will keep being independent by my own power, no matter what!

Despite being disabled, I have honed my prowess to be more independent and stronger than the average person, both physically and mentally. I have saved 7 people with no support network. I don't want any support network. I want to be my own support network.

I was mesmerized by Zanetti's philosophy, so this is the life I choose for myself. To overcome things by one's own power... feels so... so inspirational.

It is the very ideal self that I wish to remain, a man that overcomes problems and adversity by his own power. For that, I must always be strong!