Confessions of a Lonely Man Part 2: Moonlit Reflections

(The Prequel)

(Background music)

At long last, after years of fighting depression, anxiety, fatigue and war, I have found my fabric of happiness in golden solitude. No longer I feel burdened by any of the negative mental states I've been wrestling with for much of my life. Also, my chronic pain has disappeared completely. I'm in a state of pure bliss.

I have realized that a true dream job is no job at all, and as such I also became free from the need to be productive. The site has over 1000 articles by now. I feel that is more than enough. From time to time, like now, I will write my thoughts because writing gives me meaning and purpose.

So much of my former pain and suffering were a result of the conventional world, which I don't fit in to. I found out that by creating my own path, my own kingdom, and by doing my small part in rectifying the world, I also rectify myself from the damage caused by the conventional world. By the conventional world I refer to school, university and work. These were very stressful for me and after I finished school I struggled in the real world after it. That is one of the reasons I opened up this site -- to create for myself an alternative framework of meaning and purpose, while also getting to help others.

The journey with Philosocom only did good to me. It gave me meaning during my darkest times, and gave me an outlet to all the spare energy I had as a technically unemployed man. Eventually, I decided to let in guest writers too in order to diversify my legacy and allow more voices as well.

As I successfully reached happiness after a harsh but strength-building life, my need to write has significantly decreased. It was especially during my darkest and unstable times of my mental health that I was the most productive. Now that I am stable, and now that the darkness has been purified by my rectification efforts, I finally get to enjoy the life of not having to work, after I dedicated many years on working on Philosocom.

I am finally free from the need to be productive and finally free from all the vices that burdened on me for most of my life. It is truly relieving to be finally happy after years of depression and instability.

Do I regret spending much of my life depressed and unstable? Ultimately, my dark past has built me to be strong; being able of living independently despite being neurodivergent. I believe my strength has exceeded that of many people, as that is what my difficult upbringing led me to have.

And despite the fact that I am basically a lonely man, I also manage to rectify the loneliness without too much human company. Spending most of my days on my favorite hobby of watching videos, I feel truly blessed to be alone without being lonely, empty, depressed or dark.

I have basically won life itself, as well as the many challenges that stood in my path. The years spent on enduring pain has paid off. By my own power I overcame depression, overcame darkness, overcame instability. And now, I vow myself to be always strong for the woman I'm in a relationship with. Over time, being always strong becomes easy as well.

I am grateful for all my struggles, all my traumas and all my hardships. They built me to be a strong man who doesn't need much to be happy. Years of writing, years of asceticism paid off.

And all I have left now is to live the remaining parts of my lifespan a happy man. My ending has been reached. My post-purpose life awaits me. I no longer struggle living a post-purpose life, because I have written so much, the need itself for purpose has significantly decreased.

I am one of the freest, luckiest people on the planet. And I will keep maintaining my legacy for you to enjoy.

Thanks for reading.