The Darkness Dilemma -- Suicide As a Worse Alternative

The Darkness Dilemma -- Suicide As a Worse Alternative

You’re sitting alone on a top of a pillar in the midst of pitch darkness. The only visible things in front of you is your computer, playing a video game. Nothing else is visible.

You’re not satisfied with the game you’re having, and not with the computer you use to play the game. There is no internet connection available.

In this case you’re faced with two choices. You’d either continue with the game although you are unsatisfied with it, or get away from the computer and go to the darkness beyond the little visibility of the computer screen.

The computer is your consciousness; the video game is life and its various happenings; the pitch darkness is death.

You have no idea what lies in the darkness. Perhaps there would be a case of stairs that may allow you to go somewhere else, or a comfortable, bed-sized pillow to ease your pain; there could be even nothing at all and you’d fall to a field of metallic spikes - you don’t know and even if you’d have internet connection in your computer, there is no certain criteria nor evidence that other people in other distant pillars would know for sure what lies beyond the electronic light of the computer screen.

Are you willing enough to try venturing into the unknown? It is most likely a one-way ticket; once you’re out of the pillar there’s no going back. No more computer, no more of the available video games; no more comfortable chair; no more electronic light - once you’re out, you’re out for good, without really knowing what’s in there. Perhaps there is nothing there, making your decision a regrettable one; Perhaps there is a dimension of eternal torture, making your decision easily regrettable; perhaps after dying you shall be transferred to another afterlife, of starting anew, like throwing a pair of dices without any idea of what stats would it hit.

However, there is no organ in the body named “soul”. You have a brain, a pair of lungs, a skeleton - but no matter how much you’d inspect your body through reliable means, you will never find this glorified organ named “soul”.

That hypothetical organ is your only way out without falling into nothing; it’s the fuel in your boots that shall make you able to hover across the darkness into new possible lands. The exception is that you don’t have fuel in your boots, as no such thing exists.

Therefore, if you are to venture into the darkness, never to return, you’ll sink in infinite darkness, where the only thing that exists is nothing, and that nothing exists. You’ll lose all the stats, all the data and all the progress you’ve made your video games, without any access to them. You’ll also lose your computer, the only key to enter the video games. The comfort of the chair shall be lost as well, since the chair whom you’ve been sitting on for a lifetime, shall begone like anything else in your temporary, finite life, where death is always an option in the end.

The question is - is it worth to be sunk into the depths of the darkness without ever returning, or stay in the safe, known boundaries of your pillar that is the sphere of every living?

I have no right to tell you what to choose, but I will tell you what I'd choose due to logical reasoning - the darkness is unknown and there is no return from it. Because there is no proper evidence of the organ “soul” in the body (and therefore, possibly, no afterlife), venturing inside would be a fatal mistake.

Even if the idea itself is tempting sometimes, let us not forget that even if we have a serious amount of bad things in our lives, let us not forget that by choosing suicide we would lose even the good things we already have, along with the chance of making them better, making suicide a greater "minus" than the present "minus" within the living. Does it really worth, logically, to choose a darker, one-way-ticket "minus" over the current "minuses" along with the present and future "pluses"? You will die eventually, as we all do, but as long as we're among the living, we still have the opportunity to reduce the "minus" at least to a degree, making it even smaller than it currently is. In addition, we also have the chance to increase the "plus", which in turn would reduce the overall "minus" even further, while the consenquences of suicide -- on others, on your potential and on yourself -- would stay the same -- worse than the continuation of living and of the attempt of imrpove it.

Suicide, in an analogical conclusion, isn't likely to be a "restart" option to a computer, but more of throwing the computer off the window and staying without money to buy a new one.


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