The Existential Isolator (Poem)
Updated: Feb 9
For general understanding: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Existential_isolation
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Only I am the one,
Who knows who I really am.
The darkness of my mind's back, revealed,
The vastness of what I truly can.
This empire's not enough,
To extinguish the flames burning inside, of me.
They're eating me alive,
So at least, this empire, I will strive.
No matter how much I will remain misunderstood,
For it happens frequently,
I will survive as I deserve, and should.
I am not certain if love has the power I think it could,
To rid me of this.
But if I have no love then I'll at least gain respect.
Because I deserve to live,
Deserve to contribute,
My fatigued muscles, see, this do not contradict.
Whether survive or not, my legacy shall remain, consist!
See, I've seen my real name,
During my meditations.
I cannot show my true self, to none,
From the subconscious, I refuse to run.
I'm, too wise,
To reveal, my most hidden thoughts,
Existential, solitude,
I'll reinforce with a gentleman's, attitude.
Hence why I cannot be properly understood,
It will happen frequently.
But I will survive as I deserve, and should.
Admired or not, this loneliness can last, don't be fooled.
Apply this to yourself.
But that is far better to remain beneath the glass ceiling.
So I will work to live,
Work to contribute,
My fatigued muscles, see, this do not contradict.
Whether survive or not, my legacy shall remain, consist!
Being masculine means I better restrain,
The true Rubinshtein.
"You exposed, it's a mistake",
That's what my former love said.
Despite my loneliness I will try being a man,
And let none be in my way.
Remember that I am more shadowy regardless of what I say.
Perhaps within true love, I will be myself, one day.
If I only may.
As I get a woman to lay her head on my chest.
Because I deserve to live,
Deserve to love,
My fatigued muscles, see, this do not contradict.
Whether survive or not, my legacy shall remain, consist!
...I was never asked to live,
