The Rise and Fall of My Education; Why It Matters to You

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Introduction

I consider myself an educated person, but I do not consider myself an academic, even though I have some academic background. This is for two reasons: first, I find the drawbacks of the academia too severe, and second, most of my education has come in unconventional ways, mostly by being an auto-didact. I am happy to share the history of my education with you, and explain why it is relevant to the Philosocom Article Empire.

My Education History

I have 13 years of public education. I was delayed by one year because the school I was transferred to only had one classroom for autistic students, and it was the only option if I wanted to be in a class that would better teach me interpersonal skills.

Thus, I changed being in an average classroom in favor of special education, at the cost of studying in the same grade twice. In that middle school, which later became both middle and high school, I received special education that, as the years went by, became more and more unique to me.

In the first year, I needed to learn history once more, for a reason I don't remember, so I taught myself through the autodidactic path. That was the first time in my life as a student where I was required to learn things on my own within the framework of public education. No teacher, no class. Just me alone and a book as my only mentor.

I was also a university student while still in high school. Obviously, I chose philosophy as my major. I eventually stopped my studies because I was very stressed, even though I was successful in them. Another reason I stopped is because I couldn't bear the social interactions that were a consistent feature in the classes.

In the education system before university, I got excellence certificates for several years in a row.

In university, the courses I took were: The Philosophy of Morality; The Philosophy of the Mind; Anthropology; The History of the Chinese Empire (Pre-Communist); Greek Philosophy; and Anti-Heroic Literature -- in that order. The last two were abandoned when I decided to drop out.

Dropping Out

Why have I decided to drop out? It was because of the stress I was under. I believe that, regardless of my education being beneficial, it also damaged my mental health, slowly but gradually.

In short, even though I was and am talented, I fell between the chairs because I didn't manage to fit in.

I recall the version of myself I was in kindergarten, being all jolly and lacking any seriousness, but as time marched on, I became more and more gloomy and even nihilistic.

The conventional world changed me, made me lose my emotions, and encouraged me to repress myself. The education system made me a dark person, and despite my success there, I haven't managed to fit in the conventional world.

A teacher told me that I needed to carve my own path and carving my own path I did.

The Odd Mixture

As you can see, my education could be regarded as odd and unique. It was a mixture of autodidactic learning, private lessons, extended public education, and some academic education. My knowledge of the English language was largely my own, too. I had my reasoning.

Because of said mixture, I wasn't able to pick certain jobs because they required a degree, despite being educated even without it. This philosophy blog is a product of said odd mixture, where you have an eccentric range of articles.

Eventually, I allowed in a lot of guest posts to make the range of articles even larger.

As the years went by, I slowly realized that I have nothing to live for, but philosophizing. Some of you may deem philosophy unnecessary. I philosophize to stay sane.

This is why it matters to you, the reader, or at least why it should matter. It's because I'm trying my best, per my abilities and limitations, to craft a unique website with a unique set of articles for the world to enjoy for free.

You might clearly see that I am educated and even intelligent, but there are things that I just can't do, even though it's not obvious at all...

• I am not a social person, which limits my ability to cooperate with the conventional world.

• I'm a rebel and an innate outsider, meaning I am unwilling fit into conventional molds, instead preferring to live and work on this website under my own terms. I will never partake in the academia again as a result.

• Being an innate outsider, I am not a caterer by heart. Instead, I resort on passion to work.

• The way I communicate is unique and is not always easy to understand me. To understand me, you require to activate your ability to think critically. As a tip, you should understand that my words should be taken as that is more innocent than you might think and not give in so easily to your platonic impressions.

End Notes

In the end, I want my unique journey to inspire you as much as my education has inspired me to be a philosopher. Call it "deep thinking", call it "wondering,", call it "contemplating". I am confident that you have the idea already. Philosophy should be written not only to be served as fact but also to inspire one to think about existence.

Contemplation is underrated. It's underrated because we may be quick to dismiss content and people with little-to-no thought. By dismissing unique ideas, we shoot ourselves and the foot and prevent ourselves from further understanding.

Furthermore, we may fail doubting our assumed premises, and as a result we may be deluding ourselves by underestimating or overestimating the world beyond our mind.

Philosocom is best approached with an open mind and with curiosity for learning. Please understand that I am doing my best, despite my shortcomings, to give you a high-quality philosophy blog, that is free of charge.

All I want, ultimately, is to give my fair share to the world, and to contribute.