Update on My Journey: Being Young as a Burden (Written In 2025)

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As of writing this article, I am 27 years old. I did so much good in the world, became an unsung hero who saved people, redeemed myself of my darkness, and yet I feel what I did isn't enough.

Why? Because I am still young. Because life is ahead of me. It is hard for me to rest on the laurels of my moral labour because I am still young and, as such, feel I have much left to do.

Despite my accomplishments, I sense I still have great potential. And, I feel that it would be a shame to let that potential go to waste. I feel that I must do more, if I truly want to rectify the void inside of me.

I use the world in a way that allows me to rectify myself of my void. I run a website for free where I write all these articles free of charge because I want to help. I want to be meaningful. I want to make an impact.

I don't know if I will ever be satisfied, but I feel that is the path I must keep going forward in. I look at my age and I feel frustrated. Frustrated, because despite all what I did, life moves on, and my immense potential for doing good to the world remains vast.

I look forward to keeping helping people because helping people helps me feel like I'm living up to my potential.

I wish the void will go away, so I'm doing whatever I can to build Philosocom and to help people. I find that the more I help people, the more the void and the darkness within me disappears.

I feel cursed. I feel that I am in a constant journey towards redemption. Had my potential not been vast, I would feel happier. However, the thoughts of my untapped potential to do good in the world just keep chewing my mind, never letting me go.

Someone I used to know told me that I'm no one's savior. I guess they said that to me because they tried to help me feel less responsible, to reduce the amount of burden I feel by the daily. To tell me that it's fine, that I don't need to save anymore.

Yet, I want to do more because I'm young. And being young is a burden to me. Had most of my lifetime been ahead of me, I would've felt better about myself. I won't necessarily save, but I will keep building this empire of a website because I want to keep helping people. And helping people is what makes me feel less empty inside.

I already did so much in this life, but this life isn't over. I view life as a task, and each day, a problem to be solved. Killing time can come eventually to a point where I feel guilty. Guilty, because of my potential. My potential is massive, and I want to keep working on this site because it is the main thing that keeps me satisfied in life.

But eventually, that satisfaction goes away because I'm still young, because life is still ahead of me. And that means I still have a lifetime of good to do in the world.

Most people my age don't think about these things, but I do because I'm different. I'm not like everyone else. I am unique. And I have no guide to help me understand what to do next, and no one to serve as a savior to save me. All I have is me. And what I want to do, to not feel empty, is to do good in the world.

Had I not wanted to do good in the world, several people would end up dead by their own hands. This makes me feel responsible for my vast potential. No one would unleash that potential but myself. No one will fulfil that potential but myself. No one is going to be my savior but myself.

And only when I fulfil that potential, only when I do something that can be considered good, even if there is no one to cheer me or reward me, I feel good. Only then, I feel satisfied.

Per my emptiness, per my desire to do good in the world.

I can't tell how I would end up being an old man, but for as long as I have my potential to do good in this world, I don't think I'll stop even if I'll be old. I might do less, due to old age, but I would still do, nonetheless.

I know I don't have to do anything, but not doing anything just doesn't feel right, you know? For as long as life is ahead of me, I would feel the need to rectify the world. Only then I would feel comfortable knowing that I did whatever I could to do good in the world.

Doing good is the only thing that makes me feel good about myself. Even writing this article, makes me feel good about myself, helps me feel like I'm contributing in my own way to help others. It is all I want to do.

When is enough? Probably when I will feel that life is behind me, or when I will realize that people are not worth helping.

But some people are worth helping. People who are grateful for what you do to them, are such examples. Doing good to people that show gratitude are the one's worth helping!

And I will do whatever I can to help because that is what helps me feel alive in a world I experience as objectively pointless. It is up to us to carve our own meaning, and per my potential, per the meaning I can create for people.

I am looking forward to combating the void and the darkness again through the power of writing. Like Sisyphus I am cursed with vast potential that makes me feel unsatisfied no matter how much of it I actualize into reality.

Yet, I did good, by writing this article, by offering you a different perspective on being young, by giving you insights to think about. Potential should fill one with hope, but what if it fills you with a sense of burden instead?

"You're no one's savior", they told me. But I feel I must do more, and more, and more. Only in that way the feelings that I'm not doing enough with my potential wither away, and instead a sense of calmness rests on my mind.

Another insight to make you ponder, by another former contact: "He who doesn't write, doesn't have problems".

I am a deeply troubled individual, troubled, specifically, by the vastness of my potential. I might not save anymore, but I feel a deep desire to continue contributing to whoever is willing to read me for free.

I have enough to live, hence why I do not charge you. What I seek, instead, is to actualize my vast potential by building a large philosophy empire, so I could feel satisfied with what I did to the world.

I have much left to do, so I better continue doing what I am doing, without ever giving up!