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(Background music) I am a young, a-social man who endured far more than the average person has ever endured. My hardships built me to become fearless, strong and brave. In solitude I coped and recovered from my many traumas and ailments, both inflicted by the world and self-inflicted as well. I grew strong, mentally strong and ascetic.  My traumas broke me and built me to become truly strong, giving up on weakness. My spirit is unyielding, my will unbreakable. I do not fear this war for I came to it mentally prepared. The sound of rocket alarms, which I hear often daily, do not intimidate me.  The news of torn-down buildings and death do not intimidate me. For many, war is an era of sorrow. For me, it's just another Tuesday. In war, people die. That's just how war is. It's inevitable that in war people die. I made peace with that fact. I made peace with the fact that I was born to a nation of unrelenting survivors, and as such have become an unrelenting survivor myself, in my own methods. In solitude, I survive better than most people would. I purposefully isolate myself to endure and to stay safe. I rarely go out. I rarely talk to people. Ever since I was a child, I knew I was too sensitive , and therefore I have built and designed myself for toughness in solitude. And thus, as people scream, mourn their dead and lose their homes, I endure in silence like I always endured life. Life was already tough for me before the days of war. E ver since I saved my grandmother  all I knew in life immense mental pain. Immense pain and sorrow under the veil of amnesia. Furthermore, I already realized that the world is going  to be more dystopian , which casted an additional veil of depression on me as a child. But that depression is gone. Instead, came acceptance of reality as it is, alongside with my desire to rectify the world  via Philosocom. I am not a social man . I am a solitary creature who endures the pains of 2020's Middle East in silence, alongside my own PTSD. My pain is my drive and my reality . I shall endure this pain until there will be peace, and even after there shall be peace (who knows when), I shall be left with enduring my personal pains heroically. I have endured much. I do not fear this world. I did many brave things, during this war, like daring to love , daring to save and help people that would otherwise be left alone, giving them a voice and giving them hope, even for a little bit. Independently, during the war, I redeemed myself from my darkness, and let my inner light shine. A survivor of a failed world is what I am. The education system didn't prepare me for war. I prepared myself. I do not fear what I cannot control. I bravely live, day after day, in a war-torn country, as I recover from my many traumas, inflicted by an incompetent world, and by myself, purposefully. Much of my hard life has built me up for strength most people just don't have. I saved my grandmother, t hen guarded a then-unstable mother for 17 years , starting at 10. At 10, most people still have their childhoods. For me, I saw my grandmother screaming that the world had forsaken her, and observed her grabbing a knife and stabbing herself. Had I not been there, she would twist the knife deeper. I still have flashbacks to this very day, to that cursed event, but I am able to endure alone, no psychologists, no help to my mind other than medication. My life had been defined by relentless survival of trauma.  This war means less to me, as a result. My pathway in life is unique, for the education system failed preparing me to the real world. I often feel like a solitary navigator, having no choice but to carve his own path in adulthood, enduring PTSD and ailments mainly by myself. Those who know me more know that I am a hero . That I am brave and strong. Life was hard for me before the war, life is hard for me during the war. For me, it is a different hardship, but a hardship nonetheless, and hardships are something I am used to. It was the very grandmother I saved that taught me better than the entire education system. She raised me to be, in her mad words, the "ultimate moral soldier", designed to rectify this world, and make sure my mother is safe. I already did a lot in her name, in the form of helping people. Helping people is what rectifies myself from my darkness, and makes me a happier being, even during war. I'm keeping on Philosocom as a promise to her, to do my best to be a moral man that helps people. Life matured me long before the war, but this war matures me even more.   I don't have the ego I used to, just a year and a half ago.  I don't have the need to appear in person online. I live independently, standing tall on my own two feet, with no support network, after I saved several people from sacrificial despair, and after helping the needy, and after getting love, and breaking my monastic vow. Seeing my dear one smile is what keeps me going in life at this point, after 14 years of my life where I was in great despair myself. Life. Life was always hard, but life built me. My pain was always invisible, and writing is how I let go of much of my pain. Even being born was traumatizing for me. I grew up to an unstable mother and grandmother, to divorced parents, in a criminal, poverty neighborhood. I always sheltered myself from the world, and always saw the world as hostile, because that was the life I was given. These were the cards I was dealt with, in addition to seeing my grandmother stab herself, which only added to the trauma. This war is just another hardship for me, as a result. The war doesn't excite me, as a result, for life was always hard. It is simply a new breed of hardship I've never experienced before, but I came mentally prepared for it. It is said that hard times create great men, and it is correct. Had my beloved not wished me to be safe, I would stay to endure seeing rockets above me. One day I felt like I would die, and indeed, one time a rocket exploded so near to me I just knew I would've died had I not ran away. I endured much, suffered much, but there is a lifetime still ahead of me. In solitude, I grow from my traumas and live life casually in a war-torn country, alone. No one to help me but myself, by choice. I always chose the hard paths in life, because the hard paths are what build you. It was always obvious to me,  and as such I went, as a teenager, to hours-long walks, to build a self-ruthless self.  I already made my life hard on purpose long before the war. This is why, for me, this war is just another hardship. But still, it changes me. It makes me stronger than I ever was before. I choose to live a largely-solitary life to spare people. Most people are not as tough as I am, so I deem it fit to spare people from my brutally honest way of communicating. I don't want to cause pain to anyone, I refuse to derive joy from causing pain, it is not what my late grandmother would've wanted. I've long accepted the fact that this war might last long. I do not fear it. The suffering of my nation doesn't bring me down. Even amongst war, I manage to find happiness. The happiness of love, specifically . I no longer live for myself. I live for two people, me and her. And I vow to stay strong. I vow to remain unbreakable and fearless. I vow to resume enduring anything that life shall put in my way. I already endured much, and I can endure more. I do not fear, for I have developed myself to be fearless. It is just I want to keep sparing the world from the likes of me, because you either die a hero or live long enough to become a villain. And my aim in life is to die a hero, and get rid of my darkness for good by helping people through Philosocom. Love and ruling this site with a helping hand is what keeps me going, what keeps me happy, what helps me not succumb. I want people to learn from my example. I want my life to be a tale of bravery and strength. I want to inspire. I want to help people not give up. I want to help people, through my writings, to choose life, despite the hardships that life may throw at you. Sacrificial despair is only for the weak.  When you are as strong as me, nothing can break you. When nothing can break you, your perception changes. Even the longest of wars can be but Tuesdays to you. So don't give up just yet. Believe in yourself. Believe in yourself and don't let down those who are dear to you and those whom you are dear to them . You are important, you are valuable. Sometimes, it's these little moments that help me move on in life, like the smile of someone special to you. Find someone to love, find someone to cherish, even if that someone would be yourself. Endure the pain, endure the suffering, and march, march on.

(Background music) (Philosocom's Directory on Politics) In a world where self-interest overcomes the will to cooperate, where the quest for more power triumphs harmony, and where people are unwilling to get over their differences and work for a better world -- wars will always be part of modern-day reality. Wars exist because people compete for resources and dominance on the global stage. Peace is not an option for as long as countries and organizations will prioritize self-interest over greater cooperation with one another. In addition, wars will continue as long as nations and organizations will not realize, that greater cooperation is within their self-interest in the first place. For peace to be acquired, leaders and the common people as once, need to overcome their differences, understand that global peace is within the interest of everyone -- including themselves -- and stop prioritizing short-term self-interest alone. Global peace is within the interest of everyone because wars take a toll on nations and on human lives. War becomes an option because nations and organizations seek not to cooperate but to dominate. As long as domination is within self-interest, wars will persevere. If we want to prevent wars, we need to prioritize mutual cooperation instead of dominance. We need to overcome the self, and be willing to strive for mutual partnerships and alliances over enemies. As long as there are enemies, as long as we are willing to have enemies instead of turning them into allies, wars will persevere. To overcome wars, we need to overcome the desire to eliminate our neighbours and to view them with hostility. We need to lower our egos , lower our tendencies for aggression , for the sake of a better future. But as long as we seek to eliminate one another, as long as we seek to have revenge for attacks, and as long as we are unable t o forgive our enemies for the suffering they have caused us, wars and conflicts will persevere. We, as humans and as nations, should be able to forgive our way into world peace, knowing that world peace is the interest of humanity as a whole. We should be able to overcome the ego and be willing to shift our perception of our enemies as such. In other words, if we want a change, we should be willing to no longer see our enemies as enemies, but as future allies for a better world. Furthermore, for the damage we have caused to others, we should be able to apologize, and to move on from said damage. That is true both on the interpersonal and on the international levels. However, as long as we won't forgive and won't forget, as long as we are willing to view hostility as legitimate, there shall never be world peace, and people and nations will keep fighting each other. To be able to reach peace, we need to see vulnerability not as weakness but as a power of its own. To be willing to host one another, to be willing to trust one another, we need to lower our defenses, not see the other person as threatening but as a future partner for cooperation, and so on. However, such sacrifice is something very few people are willing to make, because in order to reduce hostility between factions, you need to be willing to trust the other side, contain them and accept their legitimacy. And yet, to do that, one also should overcome their ego -- their personal ego, their national ego, and all other kinds of pride. That's because pride blinds, and in order to build a better world, we need to see a different vision. A vision where it is not weakness to apologize for misdeeds, a vision where it is not betrayal to make peace with people and factions who currently stand as enemies, and where it is not shameful to express regret for a history of brutality, violence and hostility. To be vulnerable like that, requires a strength most nations do not have. To take responsibility for suffering caused, and be willing to apologize for it, requires virtue most nations do not have. To reach world peace, that requires taking a lot of risks that would compromise the defense and security of nations. To be willing to lower one's arms, and shake hands, without the fear of getting stabbed by current enemies, that requires strength and risk many leaders in our world do not have, and are not willing to make. To be willing to accept an enemy for a potential ally while forgiving them for their past misdeeds and harms, requires the ability to see said misdeeds as forgivable. Yet, as long as we will see the past misdeeds of people and nations as unforgivable, hatred will continue to grow, mistrust will continue to prosper, and the potential risk of wars will only rise. To prevent wars, we need to be able to redeem ourselves in the eyes of our enemies, and forgive our enemies for their misdeeds, while also being able to express regret for what we did to them. Hostilities exist because of the actions of at least two sides. To be able to forgive for said actions, in a way that is mutual, requires the understanding that long term harmony is within the interest of everyone involved. However, for as long as there is no partner/s for such talks, for such diplomacy, the potential risk of war will always exist, hostility will always exist, and the strength to overcome said hostility will be exceptionally rare. Why is world peace the interest of everyone? Because peace and prosperity are mutually connected. If we want a more prosperous world, we need to give peace a chance, we need to put our differences aside, overcome the hostilities created by past activities, and be willing to move on from our hurt state into a peaceful and prosperous, global future. Yet, war is a realistic feature in our world because we are hurt, and we are using this hurt state to hurt back those who caused us said hurt, in an infinite loop. To achieve world peace, we need to grow up from our hurt state, and be willing to forgive our current enemies for hurting us, and put the damage they have done aside. Furthermore, they should be willing to do the same, if we hurt them. Why should we do it? Because that is the only key to long-term peace. To be willing to be hurt without hurting back, while forgiving being hurt, is how you prevent a future of war and hostility with that side. As long as either side is willing to hurt the other side after forgiveness has been made, the potential risk of war is always a potential. And on the national level, that is harder to maintain than on the individual level. That is because nations are capable of damage bigger than any damage a single individual can make to others. Forgiving an individual is easier than forgiving an entire nation or organization because people have their limits to what is forgivable and to what is unforgivable. To be able to at least consider forgiving for what would currently stand as unforgivable, requires strength most people -- and nations -- do not have. In conclusion, if we want a better world, if we want world peace, we should not be so hasty to give rivalry a chance, far more than harmony and cooperation. And the same applies to hostility instead of friendship, the desire to hurt for being hurt over the global interest of peace, and the ability to forgive over the temptation for hatred and revenge. Furthermore, to have peace, that requires the ability to form partnerships even with the most hatred of enemies. It is a strength very few people have, let alone entire nations. However, should that underrated strength be formed -- the strength to be vulnerable and forgiving -- only then would peace have a more realistic chance to be formed, and let alone -- world peace.

A Game of Risk (Poem) (Background music) To conquer the world, Is something that many can do. (Even I, and even you too). However, it is, A question of if you'll actually achieve this. (Potential does not guarantee success). You will succeed and fail, All dependent on the roll of the dice! (Deserving does not mean you'll prevail). So be cold, as ice, And see if the cards will, win, once, twice, or thrice! (Life's but a game of..) Risk! Even if solitude's a possibility, There is no immunity; From ill, From the suffering that be either distant or immediate; Yes. So don't be still, Don't, just wait, For the fatigue to just disappear away! For you can still conquer every place where there's a Kate… So give, demonstrate, what you have to say! Red, yellow, grey, Can all make you wish to stop and keep at bay! (For some it's just the push of a certain button). Green, and blue, Might tempt you to desire defeat. (Many people, that's what they might want to do). But why give up? Why give up when you can make a feat? (Even if it will consume nine thousand a coffee cup). Think on your, behalf, On the probability of being greater, than yourself! (Life's but a game of..) Risk! Even if solitude's a possibility, There is no immunity; From ill, From the suffering that be either distant or immediate; Yes. So don't be still, Don't, just wait, For the fatigue to just disappear away! For you can still conquer every place where there's a Kate… So give, demonstrate,  what you have to say!

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