Beneath Me -- Poem About My Antagonist ("The One Who Initiates Change")

(Inspired by Elton John's "Be Prepared" from the "Lion King")
I am well aware this time with her has been due,
And there's nothing about that, that I can do.
But, old as it is, one should remember,
The fury that is now my member.
It is clear from her determined apathy,
That she wants me to erase her from my memory.
But we're talking here about philosophy!
And even she cannot be overlooked as an exception!
So prepare, audience, my loyalists,
As I tell you why I think this antagonist,
Is a competent motivator,
Who became my life's devastator,
"But where is the site's theme involved?"
Just listen, as this I try to solve, it.
I know it appears obsessive,
But there's a reason that I am possessive;
For I... will remember her, forever.
As she made herself, with my occupation,
Beneath me!
(Break)
It is great that such nostalgia,
Can make one, philosophize with euphoria!
But of course, I am expected,
To put the flame of emotion on hold;
As the future won't be with her.
But, like with Stalin and Hitler,
Her influence will remain,
As she made me suffer such mental pain!
I will forever remain abstained,
From the many things life has to offer,
That period has stained me,
And it forever reminds me,
Of all of the puking,
And of all the anxiety,
That'll make my readers "salute" me,
Bring my life, into sobriety.
I refuse... to forgive her, indeed.
And for ignoring my existence,
She's beneath me!
The one who, as said, "initiates change",
Is beneath me!
(Note: I don't know if, for certain, I got traumatized by her, but if I find out I did, then my deep need to express myself, and write oh-so religiously... will finally be understood from its own root.)