It can be argued that everyone has a background story that made them the person they are today. Hereby the story that made me a partially ascetic, partially solitary, philosopher and "undead", metaphorically, of course. Click here for a suitable background music, composed and played by yours truly in 2014.
Onwards with the show!
I am my own type of undead - a hybrid of a lich and a revenant - a Rubinshteinic, a product of intellect combined with asceticism, or simply a lich revenant. Let me tell you my story, traveler…
There once was a kid who spent his entire childhood playing video games. Whether the sky was sunny and bright or cloudy and windy - that child kept playing the damn video games day and night after school and after homework. He was offered other opportunities to spend his childhood, but nope - video games were just to addicting and world-fulfilling. This, until he was exposed the Philosophical Realm of the universe by a dear person.
When philosophy has been made in mind and got invested for long periods of time, the child lost his innocence and begun to think how much he wasted his entire childhood playing video games instead of doing other things which are considered more worthful and more productive.
And so into the teen years many other things were offered to the boy, but it didn’t really mattered anymore, because philosophy has replaced video games. Beyond doing the necessary in order to grant time for self-actualization, isn’t everything else which is unnecessary, but potential of fun, is like a “video game”? Isn’t society a stimulation programmed by the norms, like a video game is a stimulation programmed by their developers? When I control the character in a video game, I am not really that character; it is simply a puppet created by people I don’t really know or care about. The same goes for the “character” in society - they are merely a product of norms which are external to you and which do not care about you personally. Rather, they care mostly if not only about the “character” you’re controlling, the one that many are convinced that they are themselves, because that’s how the norms made them to think like. The social ego just a creation of norms and traditions that don’t care about you and don’t care if you care about them, just like the developers of a video game!
This is a so-very alienating insight, and this is why I conclude with much eccentricity that video games and the life in the External World are fake realities; masks that we put on ourselves or are either put unto by others that teach us these masks are our true faces. We may gain pleasure and entertainment from playing a character in a video game like playing a role in society, but ultimately all of this fun, drama and entertainment are derived from faking, from delusion, from acting. We just learn to believe that we are the role we play in the society, just like we refer the actions of our video-game characters to ourselves (Shoot him! Shoot that! But wait, the character has the weapon, not me).
This has what led me ponder during my first years as self-made philosopher, is there anything more to life than the “video game” that is society and societal life? And then I realized, that there is - there is a life of relative solitude, fortified from the fakeness and absurdity of the theatre we call “real life”; a life with plenty of free time that one can domesticate to live a life of fulfillment, self-actualization, that encourages independent thought… a life perfect for an ex-gamer that wishes to explore the world after years of not discovering it.
Then I have discovered the following insight, based on my previous ones: not only more freedom there is in more solitude, but more objectivity. Simply letting oneself immerse completely in the theatre of life could only corrupt my perspective which I wish for it to become more wholesome rather than specific - and how do to that if not through observation from afar, rather than getting involved?
That’s how I became not only a philosopher, but an ascetic, while atheist (for the concept of gods is a societal concept, and therefore a part of the whole theatre we call “real life” but is merely a stimulation programmed by the norms and foreign authorities). Through solitude, one can have much time for philosophizing, which is a tool for discovering possible truths through the combination of logic and evidence. But through solitude AND asceticism, traveler, one can philosophize all the time there is between work and sleep, which in turn greatly increases one’s way of understanding existence in a more objective and a potentially soberer way!
And this is why, traveler, I see no need in going through the norm-dictated evolution of an average person’s life - you born, you study, you get a job and possibly a degree, get a partner, get family, raise them and die eventually. For a rubinshteinic, however, it’s that you get born, you work and study at the same time - and die! So much potential for discovering more and more insights about things and beings, is much worthier for a rubinshteinic than to live a video-game-scripted like lifestyle.
Who cares, after all, who’s the external scripter, when you can script your own life, and break free of the normative authority of external scripting? What you see in the life beyond the windows of your home is merely a globalized theatre that limits one’s thoughts in the name of conformity and obedience; the path to authenticity lies within a more extensive and voluntary solitude. This realization kills you and resurrects you from the death in the depths of existential despair.
And why to experience this “full” and “vivid” script of living when you can obtain knowledge and wisdom through study and intensive philosophizing? I can tell you that as a 20 years old I think like a person that has reached elderly (or at least middle age). There’s literarly no need to experience the “full” script of life when you can obtain its rewards by being an intellectual “undead” - by using “death” as free time to contemplate and research. In today’s world for a question that already has a possibly valid answer on the internet - you don’t need to ask others when you simply can google it in the world biggest library of human-created and human-discovered information.
That’s a rubinshteinic for you, traveler - a hybrid of lich, an undead intellectual, and a revenant - one that absences from the full life, but remains among the living nonetheless, through labor. I am one and I shall grant this new type of undead to the world for all to use both as a lifestyle and as a source of knowledge and insight. I am a rubinshteinic that offers his services to the world. None could now go and tell me that I am a waste of space when I’m using my solitude to contribute the people around the world in my own individual way - the way of the ascetic philosopher, the rubinshteinic!
Should you wish for insight, summon me and I will came in aid after a day where I’ve earned my bread.